Hello world! I’m back. Green Girl is over and we had a successful run. The end is bittersweet, as anyone who has ever closed a show would know, but it’s good to have my life back. One of these days I’ll do one of those “What I have learned” posts...but my inspiration for this blog comes from a different place.
I just didn’t realize it until a few minutes ago when I was at my local deli picking up a burrito. Yes I mention food a lot. Yes I am a fatty.
Before this moment I’d passed by many SPF posters up and down Manhattan, and I was casually like - “hm, I work for them that’s cool.” And then “living” at the Public, (seriously though, Living Room for Artists is an understatement) you see all sorts of famous people: Sam Shepard, Audra Macdonald just chilling in the lobby. People I’ve seen on television are in green rooms with me, talking to me. Panel discussions with real professionals.
But only a few minutes ago I’m getting ready to pay for my burrito and I look down at a pile of “sleevies” for hot coffee and I look down and see a picture of a girl campaigning for Live United and I’m like. “Wait, I know her, that’s Reyna from Neighborhood 3.” Only then, did I have the “So, this is it” moment. Not sure why.
I’m not even sure if I know what “it” is. But “it” gives me a funny feeling. There’s a good chance “it” will include me living off Ramen noodles for several years but the future doesn’t seem so far and ominous any more. I feel like I’m plugged in. I mean no one has pressed the on button yet, if that makes sense - I mean I’m still an intern stuffing programs - but where NYC can make one feel small it can also be an empowering place. And especially, post-Green Girl, being right there in the midst of a professional production I can say not only “Those are talented people” but also “Those are talented people that I work with.” and finally “I can and will do this.”
“It” is the difference between a dream and destiny. Whereas before I would say “My family is ridiculously supportive of my crazy dream.” I will now say “They are invested and believe in my destiny.”
So what’s next? Well tomorrow, thanks to the American Theatre Wing I will attend a forum on Inside the Tony Awards. I thought of standing outside the Tony’s this year and taking pictures of celebrities walking the red carpet but when I go to the Tony’s I want it to be for real.
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